no reflections

Everywhere but here...

I was taught never to beleive myths that are based on a prime number. How every cell in your body is replaced every 7 years. Maybe that's why now is just like 7 years ago? I've forgotten everything about then and how I felt. How I hated it then, so why do I have to go through it all again? I wish that one day I'll get feeling back in my hand... one day, but it's still numb... exactly like it was then. But at least there's not that seemingly endless flow of blood that made my heart race with fear. I was so scared. There was no reflection in that puddle. And then I fainted.

I'll admit it's not a lot...

There's no use in getting annoyed at me if you don't tell me.

That's the way I fight my fights, so I know what you're doing. If you've really got an issue with something then just say it. Stop fuelling your own frustration and stop taking it out on me just to help yourself.


"Here's all that I have to give, I'll admit it's not a lot. But it's all that I've got to hang myself with in hopes that you'll take notice of me. I've been waiting so long up in these trees trying to hang myself with thoughts of you, thoughts of me.
I've been wishing so long... why can't you see me?"

Although it may not be in the same way as most people or even one person may need you, if you were to disappear from our lives, I think I'd have to leave too. I can feel this ice slowly moving apart. We're drifting,,, your faces blurred on the ice. I lifted you out, but I slipped. I'm trying to keep myself from falling, but the truth is you were too high and I've been down here too long. Let's just keep on like this: being uncomfortable? I am... Shearing ice from my eyelids as I lift them to look at you and I relive the first conversations we had.