I'm getting to that point where I can't remember if I've posted photos or not before. So I figure I'll just post them anyway.
I'm thinking of entering the Scribbly Gum photo competition. In fact, I've already entered one photo - so we'll have to see in another couple of weeks if I get through to the voting round.
Adrian and Greg have gone to Melbourne for 5 days to mix some songs which means I'm basically here alone. I'm really enjoying it though. It's nice to be able to actually go through my head and sort my thoughts out without being overloaded with other things.
I sat on the balcony today for an hour or so, listening to my iPod, relaxing and thinking about the future.
I've been spending a fair bit of time recently with someone who knows exactly what they want... in a way. In other ways though, they're completely lost and don't even know it. But maybe that's just my perspective. But why do they complain to me about it almost every single day?
They said something the other day which was
almost like a slap in the face. I say almost because I don't think they meant it - but it was offensive, or maybe I'm just depressed about it. It's as if I'm not good enough to be where they are mentally or emotionally.
So why does this get me down? Could I just be insecure with my situation at the moment…?
I can't figure out what is bothering me. Maybe it's just as simple as I don't like what this person wants. But there's no way I could ever say that out loud. They’d ignore me. Get defensive. Make them more persistent. Or they’d start to dislike me. Then Adrian would get annoyed at me and so would everyone else.
So what do I do? Deal with my own insecurities and forget about this other person’s problems. But we’re human… pack animals… we’re supposed to care for each other.
